A little bit about
Me
Maximum Effort - That’s what my favourite anti-hero, Deadpool , lives by. For the longest time, I lived by that same rule thinking, “That’s life”. A constant, losing, up hill struggle designed to take you down.
My life echoed that belief brilliantly. I walked through cancer, spinal injuries, surgery after surgery, abuse, heartbreak, constant pain - physical, emotional and psychological. Always on the verge of death, both literally and figuratively
I spent 10 years trying to survive and just merely getting by. I couldn’t focus. I couldn’t get anything done. I felt like a failure in every way. I wasn’t like other people working their way up. I wasn’t building relationships. I wasn’t living even though I was alive.
So every time I “tried” to do something - apply a new skill I’d learned, start a new job, build a new relationship, something would always get in the way and just as I’d predicted, it would fail. I would fail.
That pattern starting building fear. A lot of “what If’s” became “maybe it’s best if I don’t”. It hurt.
No matter how much I wanted to make all my dreams real; Something always got in the way.
Eventually, I realised “I” was the something. It wasn’t a conscious effort. I wasn’t sabotaging myself because it was fun. I was just terrified of being hurt, a failure and a disappointment again.
That’s when Marisa Peer and RTT found me. It worked. Something finally worked. I needed to help people so they would have to struggle as much as I had. I decided in that moment this would be one of things I did for the rest of my life.
It became my mission to help teach the builders of our world to:
- Train your mind to work for and to support you so you can walk the path of least internal resistance.
- Be ready to stare fear in the face and say, Game on!
- Stand up to self-sabotage and procrastination and WIN consistently.
I’ve spent a lot of my time on this planet walking the path of most resistance. Surrendering constantly to the internal monologue that was put in place to keep me “safe”. Hurt but safe and alive.
That’s the protocol our mind is programmed to run on.
I’ve fought the battle you’re fighting. It’s exhausting..... Have you ever felt:
- the frustration of having to go to war against myself; losing more often than I won
- confusion and frustration at why my “want to do’s” not converting into “I am doing”
- the fear of wasted potential and time constantly creeping past
- the alienation that comes along with pushing everything and everyone away
I had the skillset. I’d succeeded helping others with those exact skills but I still felt like I was dragging myself from task to task like a petulant child that didn’t want to come along for the ride.
My mission was born of my own personal struggle. A struggle with feeling not:
- good enough
- healthy enough
- powerful enough
- competent enough
- perfect enough
- quick enough
- smart enough
- productive enough
